I have no idea who reads this. I feel I am just going through the motions which is why I hardly ever post anything anymore. When I was young I had this vision. We can make the world a happy place. We can make the world a place where everyone wants to live. Really Live ! I found out once I got my degree in engineering that the world is made up out of selfish people who pursue their own gain. Their own ideals. And most of their ideals are a waste of time. And even if I tried to get enough resources together to help them they wouldn’t want to wait for me to get the resources together. They all deserted me in my quest to help them. I guess they didn’t see me as their leader. But then I noticed something else. Not only did they not want to wait for me to help them but they positioned me to take the brunt of the burden. Each and every time. I would water the plants. Feed the pets. Be the last to choose leave at work because I wasn’t aware that people were more interested in what they’re getting than what they’re giving. Fucking idiots. Disgusting assholes. And then I was asked to lie about weather or not the COREX plant uses coke or not. I refused to lie and was treated like absolute shit. My boss ordered people around under me and didn’t care about their safety. There is a chain of command on an iron making plant and you don’t mess with it. But he felt it necessary to do just to piss me off. Because I was too stupid to realize he was bating me. Same mother fucker that didn’t want to give me leave when I asked for it. And now here I am writing about why I concerned about my talents.
My talents ? Does anyone care about what my talents are ? I can explain things in a way that no one else can. Trust me. I reach out to people . It’s important to me that people understand what I am saying. I was known for this at work. They sold my talents for 2 million rand per person per month . And now ? No one cares if I live or die ? Why ? Because the ‘ mother fucker ‘ got his wish. He made me sick. He went around telling people that ” Nick was too clever and that’s why he lost his mind. ” LOST HIS MIND ? Noooo.. He worked me into the ground. He broke the law! Asshole piece of shit ! What is his age right now ?
Let me guess ? If I was 25 he was 42. So that’s 17 years older than me. So if I am 54 years old now he’s 71. A 71 year old mother fucker. Stole my career , my future.
So , this is an attempt to reclaim what the devil stole. Right or wrong. I need to be centred and find what my purpose is for the remaining part of my life. .I might as well call the people out who wronged me and they can go to hell as far as I am concerned. I hope I can hold it together.
Do I still believe we can make the world a happy place ? Not with the bullshit this earth is populated with. You people have to change before anything will ever get better. Switch your TV off and show some interest in the people around you. Otherwise we’re all destined to die in misery.