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One Drop and a wager
I was once the kind of person that would bet everything if I felt that I could conquer.
I went into baptism but a sense of pride in my abilities took over and I misunderstood christianity. I worked really hard at my righteousness and soon it dawned on me that I needed to accept what Jesus did for me on the cross in order to be righteous. I didn’t want to because it would mean that I was the same as everyone else. Guilty of the death of Jesus. It never occurred to me that Jesus wanted to die for me. But why would I want to have someone die for me ? That was sick !
In the end I was forced to accept what Jesus did for me and I had to die. It was like losing an arm wrestle against God. I had to accept one drop of His blood in order to be saved. So I did it because the pain and the torment of not doing it was far worse for me than to accept His work. But I also knew that I would die and He would come live in me. He was there all along , if you ask me. So in a way all I did was accept who I already was without striving. Before I got baptised I wasn’t striving . I started to strive after I got baptised. I didn’t understand Faith in Jesus.
So I had to go through a whole walk where I made peace with the fact that I didn’t kill Jesus because he chose to do it and He rose from the dead. And if I have Faith in Him I too would rise from the dead.
Anyway , the point of this post is , I can never undo the fact that I needed to accept His blood in order to be saved physically and spiritually. My nature is to deny that I did because I want the glory for my own life. I can never say that I never accepted His blood. It happened. And it’s irreversible.
I once decided that Jesus isn’t real and that I had fallen for a myth but then where does that leave me ? I needed someone’s blood in order to be righteous, according to the definition of the word of God. But then again if I never did what I did , I’d have died. It got so bad that I was having a heart attack and had to accept His blood. So without accepting His blood I’d not be. So calling Jesus not real is like calling myself not real. I would not be here to type this, I’d have been dead.
So then I started to feel guilty that I denied Jesus is real. And the torment began all over again. I got baptised again because I thought that the first time was a type of John’s baptism. Works based. This time I got baptised as an open display of my faith in Him. So where does that leave me now ? Anyway , it’s like Jesus said ” The work of God is this , to believe in the one that He sent ” . I can’t deny Him. When I am unfaithful , He is faithful.
So this morning I woke up and thought to myself. You know what , it happened . I lost the wager against God. He saved me. I showed that I am human and need something from someone outside myself. No shame in that. But to the world that’s shame. To some at least. Anyway , I am saved. Without a doubt. Like I said , if I had not accepted His blood I’d not be here. With the pain I felt in my head at the time and how he cooled down the pain in my head right when I needed it . And I owe my life to Him. Who’s Him ? The Word. To me The Word is God. His blood saved me. So I am saved. One drop is all it took.
Being included in some forums.
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Lately I’ve noticed that I’ve been included in a few forums and churches. I keep being sucked into church meetings. I have to say , it’s an honour. And lately , Daryl Hardy has included me in his groups as well. It would seem that nikipress is gaining some traction in South Africa. It pleases me and I hope I can continue to grow in my Faith walk and reach out to my fellow man.
Why are you being tested before your success – Napoleon Hill
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Stupid legal system
I think if I could have my life over I’d become a lawyer. I have a smart mouth. And I love to win arguments. I recently found this interesting video about the power of consent in a court room.
The 7 silent killers of success.
Here’s something we can all learn from. The best way to stuff up a good life.
Is 3I/Atlas A Massive PsyOp To Usher In The Fake Alien Invasion?
https://wendelllmalone.substack.com/p/is-3iatlas-a-massive-psyop-to-usher
We are on the cusp of one of the greatest psyops in history. For the past several years, we’ve had multiple congressional hearings about UFOs, UAPs, and aliens. We are being prepped for the coming fake alien invasion. Is 31/Atlas what the Globalists and Deep State are planning on using to usher in this agenda?
Psychological Operations-
Psyop, or Psychological Operations, is defined as planned political, economic, military, and ideological activities directed towards foreign countries, organizations, and individuals to influence their emotions, attitudes, beliefs, and behaviors in favor of achieving specific objectives.
It is often described as a military operation aimed at influencing the enemy's state of mind through noncombative means, such as the distribution of leaflets.
Overall, psyops are strategic communication techniques employed to shape perceptions and behaviors of targeted audiences. Opening comments in my cover video:
Daniel Liszt, AKA “Dark Journalist-
And this three-eye atlas, what he's saying about it is it has larger, it's certainly larger than anything we've seen. And it doesn't have the gaseous trail of a typical asteroid and things of that nature. So he's saying, my hypothesis is it's intelligently controlled.
Now, it's one thing to put it out there as the hypothesis. But if you're talking about the top man at the Harvard astrophysics lab, then you're talking about somebody who swings a lot of weight. And what they're looking for, they wanna really data mine the issue. And they did this with the drone piece just before Trump came in in December into early January. We had this incredible drone run.
They need that data, just like they're trying to add NORAD. to the NDAA this year in relation to the UFO file. They didn't do that before, but they're trying to do that under the UAP Disclosure Act, which, by the way, is headed up by that titan, that champion of freedom, Chuck Schumer out of New York.
So these aren't the people you want leading a transparency movement, that is for sure. One of the things I think about the Schumer Amendment in all of this is very interesting, because that's the first one that has included NORTHCOM.
Because the commander of Northcom and the commander of NORAD and COG are all the same guy. So that is putting the UFO piece directly under NORAD Northcom.
So you would imagine, of course, being a sky event, they'd have some role, of course.
But to put them in the heart of the legislation is part of pushing the UFO threat into the emergency powers sector. And when you get close to the secrecy around the UFO file, you're dealing with the continuity of government.
Because the only thing they did with the UFO file and COG is they flipped that kind of underground base secrecy with the lack of oversight and flipped it into space.
So that we're still talking about the last thing that went up to the moon was Apollo 17. That's 1972. So hello, where have you been for 53 years? And you're going back to the moon all of a sudden.
Well, what happened in between?
You see, there's been a large scale secret development, but that's been using the public's money. So these are the things that need to be on the table when it gets to this. And I think by just encouraging the threat, they're trying to leapfrog over this process and not do any of the real public disclosures they need to do.
Just say, hey, you know what? We have this breakaway technology. We've been building it up in the background, and that is to fight off this alien threat for you.Link to my cover video:
BREAKING EXCLUSIVE: Something BIG Is About To Happen! US Intel Agencies & The FBI Are Preparing For A Massive Alien / Trans-Dimensional Disclosure
The Alex Jones Show Aug 5, 2025
Top Researcher Daniel Liszt, AKA “Dark Journalist”, Joins Alex Jones To Break Revolutionary Intel On The Secret UFO File, Project Blue Beam, NASA Wanting To Put A Nuclear Reactor On The Moon & MORE!
Why Is Harvard Hyping 3I/Atlas Alien Invasion Scenario?
The Alex Jones Show Aug 5, 2025
Top UFO & Secret Space Program Researcher Daniel Liszt Lays Out Breaking Intel And Exposes What’ Really Happening.
I am passionate about relaxing and seeing God work
I am going to relax and see God work. This is going to be my attitude from now on. I can’t afford to be anxious. Anxiety isn’t from God. It’s worshiping the idol of self sufficiency. Usually because of hurt or mistrust that your actions lead to disaster. From past experiences. But if we really think about what we did in the past we’ll notice that we attempted to do things without obeying the voice of God and then we wonder why it wasn’t successful. Most of all we can’t relax and trust God because we don’t trust ourselves with God. Sometimes our faith is too fool hardy. We become impulsive because we see how God restored us from an earlier disaster. But we can’t use God’s grace for an opportunity to sin. And when I say sin , I don’t mean a common sin , I mean unholy unions. Just because someone says they’re a christian doesn’t make them one and if God tells you that they aren’t then don’t get involved. You can’t blame God for your actions. If He said no , there must be a reason. It won’t work out . Most ‘ Christians ‘ are confused. And on a journey… don’t fall for it unless there is stability and peace. That’s what I mean by sin. It’s disobeying God’s still small voice. It’s not like violating any law. We’re not under law but under Grace. We discard the grace of God to join someone who doesn’t know grace. This is the sin. And if we fail at bringing that person into Christ. We blame ourselves because of all the emotional hurt that resulted. Best not to do it. How can two walk together unless they’re agreed ? If they believe in blood line curses and non sense , how can you join yourself to that. They’re unrighteous. Full of worry. Paul says let them be accursed. So let them… I walk in the grace of God. End of story.
Here is a good video about Psalm 23. It says enough to make my point.
His Righteosness is all we need
I wondered for a long time howcome I never materialized on earth as I would have should I have been allowed to follow the path I wanted to. It simply wasn’t meant to be. I had a rough upbringing. My dad was always embarrassing my mother. He would talk endlessly and my mother would yell and scream at him. She kept criticizing him. Some justly and some unjustly.
So I lived in fear of evoking my dad’s wrath even when I was wronged at school. Because if I complained one fine day my dad would confront the wrong doer at school and I would be the source of all embarrassment. Mom and dad fighting over his behavior.
I didn’t have many toys to play with in fact I can’t remember any toys. I grew up wanting for something to play with. I lived in a dream world. And if I wasn’t going to be given toys I would steal my own I told myself. So over a couple of months I managed to steal toys from the hobby toy shop up the road. I eventually got caught. The embarrassment was too much to bear. I received a slap through the face from my dad and I was given the ten commandments to write out 100 times. I was also given 21 hits with a leather belt on my unrighteous bumb. I was so ashamed of being found out for being a thief at school. So I did what I could do about the situation. I started working really hard at school. Standard two.. Was all about me telling my school mates that I am clever. Standard three was all about showing them I am clever. Standard four was about being acknowledged for being clever. I wasn’t clever. I was just a hard worker. I was placed into the A class but I quickly asked if I could be in the B class where I was the previous year. But something in me clicked and I realized I could be anything I wanted to be.
I really loved our house doctor. In all the years that I went to him he was a gentleman and respectful. He always knew what to say and prescribe. Not that I would know if it was good for me or not but he really impressed me. One fine day, as was the custom in our school, I told the teacher that I wanted to be a doctor. I was super shy.. Still I managed to tell her that I wanted to be one. She told the principal.
Now usually, if you has made your mind up and told the teacher, the principal would tell the school during assembly what career path you had chosen all the while sharing some encouraging words of praise. Not for me.. Nah ah.. I was called into the principals office. I was sat down whereupon principal, Mrs Thomson, proceeded to tell me that she had heard that I wanted to be a doctor. Upon which I said yes ma’am. She said ‘ well you can’t be’. I asked why and she said because I am too stupid to be a doctor. I tried to reason with her that I am still young and my brain will grow and by the time I am 18 ill be clever enough to be a doctor. She said no I’ll always be too stupid to be a doctor. I asked if I could be a dentist but she said no, they study the same just about. You are just too stupid.
So I left her office.. Feeling dejected and weighed down with the burden of having to prove to myself and the principal that I wasnt stupid. I tried all my high school career to prove that I was clever enough but always came in second to Denise Prevost in biology. And because I couldnt beat her , just imagine, I told myself I am too stupid to be a doctor. Now that was really stupid of me but I was really superstitious. Suffered a bit from ocd. So it was important to me.
To cut a long story short. I flipped a coin in matric to try help me decide if I wanted to be a metallurgical technician or a manager. It fell twice on metallurgical engineer and that was it. I went to technikon and felt it was too easy and then I went to university and felt it was too hard.
At any rate , many years passed before I realized why things played out the way they did. It was to my advantage to be discouraged from being a doctor because doctors are witches these days. They were setup to be pillars of trust in society in order to be made to vaccinate people against their will . They made sure doctors were practical and obedient not like me , analytical and caring. I would have made a disobedient doctor who would have lost his license.
Now why do I say that being in Christ is better than being a doctor ? The power of words on people is just as effective as medication that only masks symptoms. There are natural remedies and God can heal through many modalities. The important thing is to be righteous because God says that the prayer of a righteous man availeth much. And Jesus dying on the cross has made us righteous. The placebo effect works with big pharma medication as well. It works because people believe it works but the side effects cause more harm in the long run. They’re idiots. They medicate for cholesterol when there is ample proof that cholesterol isn’t the problem but sugar in the body causing inflamation upon which the cholesterol sticks is the problem. Instead of looking at diet and natural remedies like procydin they push their statin drugs.
Here’s a video from a catholic priest . He shares , rather colourfully I might add about how bad going to a doctor really is.
“Most doctors are drug dealers in white coats” Carnivore Priest EXPOSES Big Pharma 💊.
⛪ Father Cormac’s brutal takedown of the medical industry! Why your ancestors knew more about healing than modern doctors 🔥. This carnivore priest connects traditional health to spiritual truth!
Hear Hear… this is a good woman.
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