They will assume you’re of a certain caste and not see your potential. Rats stuck in a rat race will always either resent you for not working as much as they do or they’ll want to abuse your time because they think it’s worthless to you but valuable to them when they want to abuse it.
I can assure you my bank balance is bigger than most of my abusers. But this is going to stop now. I am going into God mode. You want to talk ? Stand in line . I don’t need to talk , you do. And fuck off while you’re at it. Asholes every last one of you who think my time is worthless to me. Get a life , preferably not someone else… I mean YOUR OWN LIFE make it count for something instead of wasting my time and then assuming I want to waste yours when I just call for something small.
I recently showed someone how to save 5000 rand a month on his website and how to secure it for https protocol. It took me 10 years to learn how to do what I do and he just walked out of here with all the information. Asshole . Doos. Can’t stand the devil.
He uses people who are useless to get to me. People who have nothing to offer except for their anxiety. I am so done with them.
I feel deflated . Like nothing matters. Or is ever going to matter. How much more rotten luck do we need in life ? I spent the past 20 years saving money in order to be able to have an interest income. My plan fell apart when they hit us with this covid hoax. So now , someone who’s never been a problem to anyone , can’t even reproduce just because the powers that be think that the people who have no business having kids are having too many. What has this got to do with me ?
They hate us , I am sure of it. They see us like ants. Don’t want to get too close to us for fear of infecting themselves with poverty and misfortune. They don’t see that the misfortune we’re experiencing is all due to them. Every last bit of it is because of them. The reason why the world is a stuff up is because of the super rich . The financiers . The thirteen richest families . I don’t care what you want to call them. They’re born fortunate and die fortunate and leave their fortune to their children who they train in the fine art of screwing everyone over the same way they did.
I started writing a book about it , and I hope to release it in two years. I’ll aim to write a few words 300 or so every so often. I hope this will make me feel better. People also say I should paint. I just don’t see the use of it. Perhaps some day I will. I hope I can submit it for a PhD through publication. And if I can’t I’ll just write another book and another and another. At least it keeps me away from my mind going into one negative cycle. My mind is going into the unproductive zone and I am trying to bring it back from the brink.
There are some people who’ve seen a painting I recently did and all say I should continue to paint. Perhaps I can do this for therapy. Writing is much easier in a way. I don’t know , I’ll see. Where are we all going is the main thing I am worried about ? And how do we rectify the situation.
I am working on this painting. It’s been almost a year since I started it. I just don’t seem to be flowing with my art . But if I slog away I’ll get there. Just so much going on that I got completely side tracked with all the lies. I guess it’s appropriate that I work on a painting of our lord Jesus Christ. I think He looks like I feel. All banged up and no where to go. Like , no j@b no fly. Pinned to a cross of sorts. No better way than to just work on a painting that helps you process those emotions. Constructive. Hopefully I can finish it this month.
It’s a new year and a new year to make right . We must focus and believe that Jesus rose from the dead. Quite simply because He did. When we realize just what a miracle this is , we will take every word He said seriously. There will be no more fear and we won’t give in to Tyranny.
I watched a documentary recently where the shroud of Turin was investigated. There are more than just one image on the shroud. As Jesus rose from the dead He let off a series of energy bursts which led to more than one image recorded on the shroud.
It’s really the best documentary I’ve ever seen on the Shroud. Here it is.
So Guess what ? I am going to make this the core of my ministry. I am qualified to . So let’s go baby. We have the power. We have the victory.