Stepping into my identity , is His identity

It has occurred to me in the past that I have missed it , that I wanted to become a doctor in life but was told that I am too stupid to be a doctor when I was only 12. It was the transvaal education departments policy to discourage children who weren’t practical from becoming doctors. They used reverse psychology and stressed the children out who wanted to be doctors by telling them they’re stupid in the hopes that they’d spend the rest of their school career trying to prove that they weren’t stupid but were clever.

It worked on me , I tried hard to prove that I was clever enough to be a doctor . And I decided that I’d prove that I need to get the highest biology mark in the class. So ? What happened was that I used to get the second highest mark in the class for biology. I told myself that I must be too stupid because I couldn’t be the best.

When I graduated from school I was told to go study and I didn’t know what , so I studied metallurgical engineering . All because it was recommended to me by a Mr. Ian Dam from old mutual insurance company. So I studied it and later found out that it is harder than medicine from doctors who told my mother. I felt empty when I left high school , my dream of being a doctor slipped through my fingers.

Anyway , I had a blowout when I was 26 . I couldn’t reconcile my identity to lying for my boss . A Mr. Gawie Lotter. Who ordered me to lie . I couldn’t , and he started pressuring me and treating me like an outside because he said ” you’re not a team player “. I thought on what team are you that you want me to lie ? I wouldn’t lie. So I burned out . He broke the law by denying me leave and now I am medically boarded.

BUT GOD… had a plan. And I’ve been told by many Christians that I am a healer. And I am beginning to see that when you make Jesus Lord of your life you clothe yourself in His righteousness and then you become who you were always meant to be. ” Oh physician heal thyself ” . In Christ we are physicians , we can heal the sick. ” And they shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover ” .

And so , I am at the beginning stages of embracing this identity that Jesus died to give me.

Finland I see you

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There will come a time when our faith we were told about when we were little will have to be practiced in all it’s fullness. We will have to take up our cross’s and follow Jesus. To believe that He will resurrect us should we die in righteousness. To not give in to tyranny.

And it would seem to me that that time is now. Despite all my efforts to shine a light into the darkness , I’ve noticed that people are not willing to join the movement. It’s simple. ” And they overcame by the blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony and they loved not their own lives unto death ” . When will we start hearing proper preaching about what we need to be doing. The answer isn’t in declaring all the evils in the world. The answer is to believe in the light and to be prepared to die for that belief. Come on people , we can do better !

I launched a whatsapp group for good news and testimonies and I’ve only got 15 people following. How are we going to win with that small amount of followers ? I know Gideon won with only 300 followers but we’re a world of billions. Surely God expects us to be a spotless bride before He returns ?

I don’t even know who reads this blog. I see views but no comments. People become couch potatoes ? Can’t even leave a comment.

When a Man Stops Seeking Relationships, He Slowly Becomes This

In a world that fears solitude, what happens when a man finally stops the chase? This video explores the psychological and Stoic journey of a man who chooses to stop “auditioning” for others and starts authoring his own life. We dive deep into the stages of this transformation—from the death of the social mirror to the birth of the “Sovereign Man.” If you’ve ever felt the weight of being alone or the pressure to constantly be in a relationship, this is for you. Learn how to turn your isolation into a fortress of strength and why the most dangerous man is the one who no longer needs validation from the outside world. Chapters : 0:00 — The Day the Chase Ends (Alone Man’s Secret) 0:55 — Why Being Single is a Psychological Shift 1:45 — Breaking the Social Mirror: No Relationships, No Masks 2:30 — The Observer’s Vision: Seeing Through the Games 3:45 — Reclaiming Your Currency: The Alone Man’s Power 4:50 — Building the Fortress: Investing in Yourself 5:40 — The Iceberg Effect: The Dark Side of Being Single 6:35 — Independence vs. Isolation: The Razor’s Edge 7:20 — Becoming “The Unfazed”: The Final Transformation 8:05 — Why Finding Yourself is the Only Real Victory

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Hard work huh ?

The work has been done , through the gospel , we just need to walk in it and watch the miracles manifest. This is the simplicity of Christ in the bible. Why do we complicate it so much ? It’s the unlearning of the ego that is the problem. The gospel comes to kill the ego. You can’t earn God’s favour silly creature. You can only accept what Jesus has done for you , which in all honesty comes to this. He made you. He’s your creator. Just accept yourself. Stop struggling to be someone else. This is the whole problem of humanity.

It is my sincere hope that someday I’ll be able to share the gospel in a way that makes this so crystal clear that people will jump into the river of God. Until then , I have a few hurdles regarding my personal life but this too shall pass. This too has already happened. It’s in the past. It’s paid for in Christ Jesus.

Onward and upward . If I don’t see you here , I’ll see you there.

Posted on March 31, 2026 by Nick

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My life’s contribution to engineering and industrial innovation

Most people don’t realize how big the COREX iron-making process is or what it costs to run. When I introduced my preheating method and reduced coke consumption from 20% to 3%, I didn’t just make one plant save money for a few years. This innovation has been saving every COREX plant in the world fuel costs for the last 30 years.

To put it in perspective: globally, COREX plants have produced roughly 118 million tons of iron in that time, and my method has saved around 12 billion rand—that’s over 660 million US dollars. Every ton of iron made since then has been cheaper and more efficient because of what I did.

This is the kind of work that quietly changes the economics of an entire industry, and it’s my life’s contribution to engineering and industrial innovation.