I wondered for a long time howcome I never materialized on earth as I would have should I have been allowed to follow the path I wanted to. It simply wasn’t meant to be. I had a rough upbringing. My dad was always embarrassing my mother. He would talk endlessly and my mother would yell and scream at him. She kept criticizing him. Some justly and some unjustly.
So I lived in fear of evoking my dad’s wrath even when I was wronged at school. Because if I complained one fine day my dad would confront the wrong doer at school and I would be the source of all embarrassment. Mom and dad fighting over his behavior.
I didn’t have many toys to play with in fact I can’t remember any toys. I grew up wanting for something to play with. I lived in a dream world. And if I wasn’t going to be given toys I would steal my own I told myself. So over a couple of months I managed to steal toys from the hobby toy shop up the road. I eventually got caught. The embarrassment was too much to bear. I received a slap through the face from my dad and I was given the ten commandments to write out 100 times. I was also given 21 hits with a leather belt on my unrighteous bumb. I was so ashamed of being found out for being a thief at school. So I did what I could do about the situation. I started working really hard at school. Standard two.. Was all about me telling my school mates that I am clever. Standard three was all about showing them I am clever. Standard four was about being acknowledged for being clever. I wasn’t clever. I was just a hard worker. I was placed into the A class but I quickly asked if I could be in the B class where I was the previous year. But something in me clicked and I realized I could be anything I wanted to be.
I really loved our house doctor. In all the years that I went to him he was a gentleman and respectful. He always knew what to say and prescribe. Not that I would know if it was good for me or not but he really impressed me. One fine day, as was the custom in our school, I told the teacher that I wanted to be a doctor. I was super shy.. Still I managed to tell her that I wanted to be one. She told the principal.
Now usually, if you has made your mind up and told the teacher, the principal would tell the school during assembly what career path you had chosen all the while sharing some encouraging words of praise. Not for me.. Nah ah.. I was called into the principals office. I was sat down whereupon principal, Mrs Thomson, proceeded to tell me that she had heard that I wanted to be a doctor. Upon which I said yes ma’am. She said ‘ well you can’t be’. I asked why and she said because I am too stupid to be a doctor. I tried to reason with her that I am still young and my brain will grow and by the time I am 18 ill be clever enough to be a doctor. She said no I’ll always be too stupid to be a doctor. I asked if I could be a dentist but she said no, they study the same just about. You are just too stupid.
So I left her office.. Feeling dejected and weighed down with the burden of having to prove to myself and the principal that I wasnt stupid. I tried all my high school career to prove that I was clever enough but always came in second to Denise Prevost in biology. And because I couldnt beat her , just imagine, I told myself I am too stupid to be a doctor. Now that was really stupid of me but I was really superstitious. Suffered a bit from ocd. So it was important to me.
To cut a long story short. I flipped a coin in matric to try help me decide if I wanted to be a metallurgical technician or a manager. It fell twice on metallurgical engineer and that was it. I went to technikon and felt it was too easy and then I went to university and felt it was too hard.
At any rate , many years passed before I realized why things played out the way they did. It was to my advantage to be discouraged from being a doctor because doctors are witches these days. They were setup to be pillars of trust in society in order to be made to vaccinate people against their will . They made sure doctors were practical and obedient not like me , analytical and caring. I would have made a disobedient doctor who would have lost his license.
Now why do I say that being in Christ is better than being a doctor ? The power of words on people is just as effective as medication that only masks symptoms. There are natural remedies and God can heal through many modalities. The important thing is to be righteous because God says that the prayer of a righteous man availeth much. And Jesus dying on the cross has made us righteous. The placebo effect works with big pharma medication as well. It works because people believe it works but the side effects cause more harm in the long run. They’re idiots. They medicate for cholesterol when there is ample proof that cholesterol isn’t the problem but sugar in the body causing inflamation upon which the cholesterol sticks is the problem. Instead of looking at diet and natural remedies like procydin they push their statin drugs.
Here’s a video from a catholic priest . He shares , rather colourfully I might add about how bad going to a doctor really is.
“Most doctors are drug dealers in white coats” Carnivore Priest EXPOSES Big Pharma 💊.
⛪ Father Cormac’s brutal takedown of the medical industry! Why your ancestors knew more about healing than modern doctors 🔥. This carnivore priest connects traditional health to spiritual truth!