The joy of discovery is lacking .

I am feeling burned out on blogging , reposting and all things social media related. I just don’t feel it anymore. My mind feels like it’s rebelling and doesn’t want to do anything anymore. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel like myself again. I need a supportive environment of friends that I can socialize with once in a while and to be left alone with my own creativity. I feel muzzled and strained .

Covid-19 seems like a global threat against common sense. They’re out to kill us all through a vaccine and all I can think about is how stupid everyone is for falling for this non sense. The very thing I tried to combat viz. fear using faith didn’t materialize because ” A prophet is not welcome in his own country ” and ” He came unto his own and yet His own received Him not ” . I am so gatvol ( South African word meaning tired ) of pastors and Christians that give you the 50 yard stare when you mention the issues we’re all confronted with. They’ll not lift a finger to bring about a victory . All they can think of doing is waiting till the second coming. The most useless pathetic excuses for human beings are Christians. Jesus isn’t going to take you out of this persecution. You’re going to go through it and it would have been so much easier had you just listened to me.

I don’t know if it’s even worth it to continue. I’ve found a way to bring some revenue into the site but I feel like I can’t get it done.
Too many personal challenges.

I feel like my youth is gone , age is catching up with me and the things I thought were cool don’t exist anymore.
When I ask for support I am not asking for support for myself. I am asking you to support the Kingdom. It seems to me most Christians believe only in Kennith Copeland and Joyce Meyer. They’re sitting on 300 million and 200 hundred million a piece. They won’t lift a finger to enforce a Victory in Jesus name. Makes me sick.

This is what we’re up against. These bastards are out to kill us all. They are after your blood. If you don’t support the ministry of the Gospel in the way it should be done I am afraid you’re all doomed. Jesus isn’t going to come and save you from this evil if you don’t stand together as a body. Jesus isn’t coming back to save a mutilated bride.
Jesus knows how He looked before He was crucified. He gave His life so that we can look like Him. But you’re still grovelling in the dirt and powerless. You fail to support work that leads to faith In Him. I give up. I’ll leave you to your own devices.

I could have been so far ahead in the world but I gave it up to be part of a body. What body ? bunch of losers ! I regret the day I ever became part of such a bunch of losers and two faces. Give to the Lord , Tithe you say. Your backside man. You’re not God. Where are you now when we all need you huh ? I am referring to the tithe gatherers. You suck man. I propositioned you to join me in creating a movement . You wanted nothing of it and now fear has overcome all of you . And I’ve watched you waffle about COVID this and COVID that. You’ve all joined the wrong side !